Morning:
"Why do you do that? Your pellets are now full of poop. You can't eat pellets full of poop."

"Hoss--don't pee on tha--DON'T DO IT. DON......" [Siiiigh.]

"...I can't find the bird seed? It's usually right by Shawn's computer. I better text him and ask." [Texts Shawn, asking where the birdseed is. Shawn replies: It's underneath, on the cage stand. Mel now feels like an idiot for the rest of the day.]

"Tea, or coffee?"

Afternoon:
"...is that? Raven? Aww, man. Raven, you're supposed to Poop in the litter box. How many times do we have to go through this? Alright, look--" [Proceeds to go into a detailed explanation of where the poop goes, using hand gestures and eloquent air drawings. Cat sits on floor, is fat and stares.]

"Why is there a sock on the top shelf where my pajamas go? Just one single sock, like Shawn kicked them off in a fit of joy."

[Singing] "Theeeese boobs were made for waaaaalking," [Twelve year old giggling.]

Evening:
"I SHIT GUMDROPS!"

[To Shawn,] "Round is a shape!"

"I look forward to a time when my breasts don't clap in rhythm when I do this step-dance on the wii fit."

"Tired? I'm not--"[Yawn.]"tired. I'm fine. In fact, I think I'll have te--"[Head thump. Snore.]

Hilarity:
Yesterday evening as I was playing Age of Conan, my cell phone started ringing. Now, I must have input the wrong number--because it was Dean who called and I had his number on my list before hand. Yet, it didn't say Dean. So I was leery for a bit in answering, but eventually picked up.

As I said, it was Dean and his Dean-eyness and he was like, "We want you to join the family!"

Cue my long pregnant pause as I try and figure out wth he means. My first thought was, Well you know, I'm really flattered D but I don't know you THAT well, and a few minutes later, a few cell-phone quality signal breaks, I realized that D didn't mean familyfamily, but--the mob.

Specifically his and his wife's mob.

On Myspace.

He called me to ask me to join his and his wife's mob, which is an application on myspace. CALLED ME.

Well I had some lol's mocking him for it, when he reminded me that I was playing Age of Conan.

I squinted my eyes at an imaginary Dean, doing my best to look like the 'I see' owl. He had a point.

Touche, Dean. Touche.

--------------------

Bitching:
Dear Me:

Life was a lot easier when you had a grand total of three characters which you played and kept for several years. Or even, one.

Then, something happened inside your scary brain and you started picking up several characters, some original, some not, all of which you equally love and adore but problems arose.

Along with your sudden onslaught of soul-crushing self doubt and hate when it comes to your role playing ability, you begin to question yourself too harshly. You start out well, and you know Self--when you are on the ball with role play? You're on the ball. You're not so bad really.

But when you listen to yourself, when you let that little voice that starts in, "Maybe this character is boring?" Then the slide starts. "Maybe this character is boring. If I think MY character is boring, I wonder what everyone else must think? Are they having fun? Probably not. This character probably isn't that fun. Am I too plain? I'm probably role playing them too plain, too subtle, too boring. Who wants to role play with that? God, I wouldn't. Oh man, I suck don't I? I do.

Nevermind. I'll just role play someone else. Who do I want to play? Christ. ALL of my characters are plain. And boring! AAAAUGH." And thus, the vicious cycle of just sitting there and doing nothing mixed with some pretty stupid self-loathing kicks in.

Dear Self, if you sucked so badly people would tell you. And even if they didn't, the internet is a scary place, the echoes of their dislike for you would no doubt be carried on the wings of little birdies, as most people tend to rant about this kind of stuff and eventually it gets shared.

So Self?

STFU AND PLAY.

Love,
Me.

I put on my (wizardrobe)tinkerbell shirt and (hat)giant fuzzy bunny slippers.








I realized too late that the fuzzy giant slippers had been thrown into the wash months ago and the lining in the foot was all screwed up, making it near impossible to walk on them. So I had to wear normal shoes. Alas. :(

We headed to our local Paradise health to see if they had any 8th Continent Soy milk for sale. We actually found 8th continent at Wal-mart, of all places, but only light. We thought we'd head to Paradise Health to see if they had any non-light delicious fatty soy milk. Imagine my surprise when they didn't--they only had Organic Farms and Silk!

I wandered around to my favorite aisle:





And then grabbed a J/A/S/O/N's rose shampoo refill for me and headed on out to pick up birthday dinner.

Couldn't really afford the sushi this year (after the cell phone and new camera, I ain't complainin') so we hit Apple Bee's for birthday dinner. We had the giant plate of nachos to start.




I ordered the bruschetta chicken sammich and shawn got the brutus steak burger.





I wasn't able to finish mine nor the fries. Lawd, that was sum good eats!

I think I will nao head into Age of Conan with Shawn, because despite it being my birthday it is also the only day off he has to play :D

THANK YOU SO MUCH: birdzilla, swanofgrey, ehzoterik, tigerphoenix, slwatson, rubytears, rachaelwynter, yellowrosetx FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES!

THANK YOU horizonchaser FOR THE TIARA OMG. STILL. AGAIN. YAY!

bariguy = Shawn, my husband
ashadow0fme = Me.

[03:23 PM] bariguy: WINZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
[03:24 PM] Ashadow0fme: ZORBLADES
[03:24 PM] Ashadow0fme: Get my messages?
[03:24 PM] Ashadow0fme: And not know how to reply to them?
[03:25 PM] bariguy: I got the bra ones this morning. I also got the last one you sent about cash from payperpost, get my response?
[03:25 PM] Ashadow0fme: Nope.
[03:25 PM] bariguy: I replied to the last one
[03:25 PM] bariguy: but not the first ones about the bras
[03:26 PM] Ashadow0fme: I didn't get nuttin'
[03:26 PM] Ashadow0fme: But cool. Yeah, one set of bra's are under wire, the second set I think, are the more traditional uber supportive.
[03:27 PM] bariguy: good, bras camera phone and jamies, no more anything until 2010
[03:39 PM] bariguy: win?
[03:39 PM] Ashadow0fme: Yes win.
[03:39 PM] Ashadow0fme: U r teh winnnzorz
[03:43 PM] bariguy: did you get a pink or purple bra? I know Laniese said they had them
[03:43 PM] Ashadow0fme: White.
[03:43 PM] Ashadow0fme: Because in my size, color choices are limited via the web site.
[03:43 PM] bariguy: all white?
[03:43 PM] Ashadow0fme: Yep.
[03:43 PM] bariguy: damn webbernets
[03:43 PM] Ashadow0fme: Yes.
[03:44 PM] Ashadow0fme: Maybe next year.
[03:44 PM] Ashadow0fme: And several pounds lighter, I'll have some smexy pink things.
[03:44 PM] Ashadow0fme: PINK.
[03:44 PM] Ashadow0fme: YAY PINK
[03:44 PM] bariguy: still, they shall restrain breasts just as well
[03:44 PM] bariguy: 2010
[03:45 PM] bariguy: PINK!
[03:45 PM] Ashadow0fme: Well, not just restrain. More like: "Not drag on the ground and get stepped on."
[03:45 PM] Ashadow0fme: That's important.
[03:45 PM] bariguy: you haven't stepped on your boobs for a few years now
[03:46 PM] Ashadow0fme: I know. I'm getting better at this whole walking business.

For my birthday coming up next month, Shawn let me order a lime green and white striped tinkerbell shirt. Tink's stitched with pink thread and outlined with sequins. To go with that, I chose pink, hanes her way organic cotton jammie pants.

He also ordered more Shoyeido incense, this time we got a series from them we haven't gotten before. I ordered the Xiang Do, Lavender and Citrus. LET ME TELL SOMETINK TO J00. These things are the crack of nose delight. Oh. My. God. They are SO GOOD. GO GO GO GO to their website and get some NAO. Seriously!

Last, but NEVER least, is a selection of teas I loved the best from a sampler I got a while ago. Those came today.

Pretty good this year, since we're (always) one step away from being tits up in debt :p

I'm still playing it okayokay.














( And more actual more srs screenshots behind a cut because I had way more than I thought I did and I don't want anyone sending me death rays of hate for not putting them behind a cut. Cutcutcuttitycut. )

rachaelwynter I haven't forgotten that promise a long time ago to send you something hand-made.

Unfortunately, I have periodically let it fall to the back of my head because I don't know what to send you. I was thinking about an 8 x 11 print of a picture I've taken but...I dunno if anything that I've taken is something you'd be interested in hanging on your wall. :/

Would you be an antelope and pick something from my deviant art gallery or lemme know what kind of pictures you'd be interested in?

Also: who wants to be my sent-notes-random-post-cards-cards-whatever-old fashioned pen pal?

Also, also: I forgot to thank you guys for your comments to my mother's tribute and the reactions there of. It really was amazing and made me all happy-tingly. Thank you!